The wise man

I borrowed 'He's Just Not That Into You' (*the newly expanded edition) by Greg Behrent and Liz Tuceillo from the library today. I read it (at a guy friend's suggestion) a few years ago and felt this overwhelming urge to read it again. I'm only halfway thru the first chapter and I'm already shaking my head at myself, nodding with things that they have written thinking, "I've done that!"

It took me a long time a few years ago to get rid of all the guys in my life who "just weren't that in to me". It was hard but it ended up being so worth it. I also worked really hard to get over a guy who I thought I'd spend the rest of my life with - all because I built something up in to nothing. It was worth it, I learned a lot, but I told myself I'd never put myself through that again.

And yet I am.

It's so rare for me to find someone that I'm interested in, that I feel a connection with, that I tend to lose my head a little. Maybe not so much in reality but my imagination tends to take a thought and run with it. And that's ok, it's what I use to fuel my writing, and I always say I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all...but this time it feels different. I don't have the highest confidence on a good day but when it comes to guys I tend to be riddled with self-doubt.

But I'm working on it.

And in the meantime, I've got a great book to read.