People don't believe me when I tell them that I'm happily single. I guess it's something that's hard to understand...unless you've done it.
My life is busy. I have full custody of my son and he is my priority in life. Yes, I need time for myself and I get that...every night after he goes to sleep. I spend my "free" time doing things that I enjoy - watching movies, playing computer games, reading, emailing friends...it's all stuff I can do from the comfort of my own living room while my child sleeps in his bedroom down the hall. Even when I've have a boyfriend (if I remember right - it's been awhile) we'd spend time either here watching a movie after Jr was asleep or going out once in awhile to a movie or IMing. I just don't need it to be more complicated than that.
When I think of relationships I think of complication, of added stress. I leave for work before the sun comes out, come home to help with homework and make dinner and do laundry and vacuum, then I'm usually running Jr to practice or a game or a friends house. Going out on a date on a school/work night means I'm not home with my kid and that doesn't work for me...especially when I need to get up so early the next morning. I don't like to ask my parents to babysit since they should be able to enjoy their time alone together...they did a lot for me when I was working nights. They are always very sweet about letting Jr come to their house when I have something that I want to go to but that isn't every week - and that's ok.
But that doesn't mean that I don't have a life...it's just different than other people's expectations. I'm babysitting for friends on Valentine's Day so they can go do something without worrying about their kids...I will enjoy that.
My theory is that when I meet the right guy things will either work by themselves or it will be worth it to change things up a bit. Until then, I'm ok with this.
Saturday, January 05, 2008
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